Hey, viewers of mine.
I'm back here blogging for today.
So dead tired right now.
I'm left confused.

I don't know what to do about life.
I don't know how to talk about this post also.
All I had in my mind is, I don't know what to do.
What's with life nowadays?
People gets better life than me.
Where did I go wrong?
I don't know how to explain the feeling.
I don't know what to say.
I'm sorry if you feel like I'm talking about you.
Yes, I am talking about you right now.
I don't know what I did until you have to do this to me.
I don't fool around.
I don't sleep around.
I don't have time for any other guys other than you.
But, at the end of the day, I got this.
He's your everything, your all.
I never qualified to be one of those, I know.
I never will be anyone's property.
All people just do with me is just sleep around and throw me away.
As and when they want to.
I'm not like Him.
He's nice, working and independent.
Unlike me.
What do I have?
I have nothing.
Be it with or without you.
I know, even if I say it this way, it won't make any difference.
I'll be the way I am right now.
I'm sorry to make your life difficult.
Your brother won't even accept me.
I should have listened to him.
As in, to stop contacting you and stuff.
Here I am, once again.
Fallen into pieces.
Now, it's in front of your eyes.
Are you happy now?
I know you like it this way.
My life was never a happy ending like yours.
I will never get to live in those kind of fairytales like you guys.
I'm different.
No one wants me.
No one wanna be like me.
No one will even like me.
Since you're happy with the decision you're making, then go ahead.
Live it happily.
I was never part of your life.
Even if you say I am, in messages.
But, in real life, it's different.
Things are different now.
I'm a criminal.
You're an innocent guy.
There's no way we can be together.
Be it I've changed or what.
I'm sorry to talk about you in this post.
I just want you to realize how much I feel deep inside.
I know, I'm not supposed to do this.
And put words in your mouth like what He said.
I'm sorry.
I just wanna let it out.
Homeys start talking to me, asking me what I see in you.
When they don't see it in you.
They're like saying you're worthless for me.
I told you that, and you don't believe me at all.
Now I'm blogging to prove everything is not made up.
We got into alot of fights, I know.
Remember, you left me with someone new.
I'm left with just some harsh messages from you.
Saying that you will find me and kill me.
You even say that I wanna hurt Him.
I don't mean that way.
The way you hurt me is worst than the way you hurt Him.
Now I know, you're still not happy with me.
Have you had enough?
Of everything?
Have you had enough of hurting me already?
I know, this sounds harsh.
But, I have to earn my life back.
The life that you took away from me.
The sacrifice I made, is just gone into pieces.
Thinking about it just makes things worst.

Okay, guys.
Till here, I blog for now.
Take care!
Good morning!
And have a nice day!