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Thursday, September 17, 2009
Hey, viewers of mine. I'm back here blogging for today. So dead tired right now. I'm left confused.
I don't know what to do about life. I don't know how to talk about this post also. All I had in my mind is, I don't know what to do. What's with life nowadays? People gets better life than me. Where did I go wrong? I don't know how to explain the feeling. I don't know what to say. I'm sorry if you feel like I'm talking about you. Yes, I am talking about you right now. I don't know what I did until you have to do this to me. I don't fool around. I don't sleep around. I don't have time for any other guys other than you. But, at the end of the day, I got this. He's your everything, your all. I never qualified to be one of those, I know. I never will be anyone's property. All people just do with me is just sleep around and throw me away. As and when they want to. I'm not like Him. He's nice, working and independent. Unlike me. What do I have? I have nothing. Be it with or without you. I know, even if I say it this way, it won't make any difference. I'll be the way I am right now. I'm sorry to make your life difficult. Your brother won't even accept me. I should have listened to him. As in, to stop contacting you and stuff. Here I am, once again. Fallen into pieces. Now, it's in front of your eyes. Are you happy now? I know you like it this way. My life was never a happy ending like yours. I will never get to live in those kind of fairytales like you guys. I'm different. No one wants me. No one wanna be like me. No one will even like me. Since you're happy with the decision you're making, then go ahead. Live it happily. I was never part of your life. Even if you say I am, in messages. But, in real life, it's different. Things are different now. I'm a criminal. You're an innocent guy. There's no way we can be together. Be it I've changed or what. I'm sorry to talk about you in this post. I just want you to realize how much I feel deep inside. I know, I'm not supposed to do this. And put words in your mouth like what He said. I'm sorry. I just wanna let it out. Homeys start talking to me, asking me what I see in you. When they don't see it in you. They're like saying you're worthless for me. I told you that, and you don't believe me at all. Now I'm blogging to prove everything is not made up. We got into alot of fights, I know. Remember, you left me with someone new. I'm left with just some harsh messages from you. Saying that you will find me and kill me. You even say that I wanna hurt Him. I don't mean that way. The way you hurt me is worst than the way you hurt Him. Now I know, you're still not happy with me. Have you had enough? Of everything? Have you had enough of hurting me already? I know, this sounds harsh. But, I have to earn my life back. The life that you took away from me. The sacrifice I made, is just gone into pieces. Thinking about it just makes things worst.
Okay, guys. Till here, I blog for now. Take care! Good morning! And have a nice day!
Hey guys. Back here blogging today. After a long day at home. Cleaning up my place.
And I found out lies, lies and lies. So fun to find them you know. Like playing a game. Well, guess what's the latest news? I GOT WEIRD PEOPLE ADDING ME UP FROM TAGGED! LIKE WTH! I'M ACCEPTING THEM. JUST DON'T STEP ON MY HEAD AND IT'LL BE FINE! WHAT A DAY I HAD TODAY! NEVER MIND! DON'T WISH TO TALK ABOUT IT, THOUGH! MEET ME AND I'LL TALK ABOUT IT!
All right! Till here I blog for now. Wanna go sleep already! Take care! Have a nice day! And good night!
Hey, viewers of mine. I'm back here blogging after a few days of break. Well, today I won't be typing much. Just letting the photos do the whole talking.
Went out on Saturday with Ray, Ryna, Ciner & Erica. Went drinking and met Pixie, Monster, Mila, Vits and Ifah after meeting them. Took several photos. Here's the photos:
This is the few photos I took at home. After a long day. When I was drunk. Sorry for the stupid face expressions though.
Well, people! I'm happy moving on with life. I just wanna stay this way. I don't wanna think of anything right now. My mind is clear. And I don't want any barrier in life for me to enjoy it. If you wanna be the barrier, then so be it. I'll ignore you like just another thin air. I'll say sorry and tell you why I'm doing that on the day itself. If I happen to act that way. Yeah, it's good that I'm still giving it to you a little bit. Not too much. Cause you'll be stepping on my head again and again. I've had enough of all this BULLSHITS okay? Don't even bother to find fault with me by messaging my mobile okay? I have no time to entertain at all. If I'm entertaining, the furthest I will go is getting back at you with my words. So, be prepared if you are trying to do that.
All right! Enough of me blogging for now. I wanna get some sleep. I'm so damn tired. To the people who have my number. Just text me okay? Have a nice day! And take care!
Hey, viewers of mine. How are you guys today? Hope you guys are doing fine.
Well, basically, you will notice that this will be the shortest post. Today, there's alot of updates actually. But, I don't wanna put it down first. As, there's some photos to upload. Went Geylang just now to search for some stuffs. Then, proceeded to Tampines to slack. And went back home at 3.30am by Night Rider.
Till here I blog for now. I'm tired. Will upload photos and update tomorrow. Take care guys! Good night! And have a nice day!
Hey, viewers of mine. Sorry, I'm just here to update you guys abit only. Well, basically, it's 3.45am in the morning.
Guess, where I'm at? I'm at Blade's crib updating my blog. I think he's sleeping right now. At the sofa. Like WTH! Ask me to come over and he's sleeping. Guess he's tired. Don't be jealous just because he's a guy okay? Well, get it in your thick skull. HE'S STRAIGHT OKAY! Well, guys, I'm so happy today. I'm living my own life. Like at last! Well, I'm really happy this way. With no one bugging me anymore. No stress and no time to think about relationships. Don't come bugging me about going back with anyone. Please! I had enough of suffering and lies already. Words are easy to say. But, the point is, how much you mean it in your heart.
Okay, guys. Till here I blog for today. Have a nice day! Take care! And good night!
Hey, viewers of mine. I'm back here blogging at 2.30am. I don't know what to say about today. Just left confused. Tired actually. I'm not going mad okay?
Just abit of stressed out, that's all. Well, people. I find this video sexy, though.
Enjoy watching it okay?
Well, till here I blog for today. I will update soon. Have a good night! Take care! And have a nice day!
Hey, viewers of mine. I'm back here blogging in the afternoon. I have to go MCYS today. And I'm like half awake. I'm so GOD DAMN TIRED!
Well, slept at 1am yesterday. And woke up at 12pm today. And still feel restless. I don't know why. I'm moving on with my life. Not hoping for something good to happen to me. I'm totally lost right now. I just don't wanna care what people say. I so gonna live my life from today onwards. I don't know whether I'm single or attached. Can someone give me an answer? Anyone as long as you're a viewer of this blog. Just add me in MSN and chat with me okay? Don't worry. I won't eat you up or kill you. I'm nice. Just say hello and I'll do the rest of the talking. Well, basically, I'm left confused right now. I just wanna see Pixie and tell her about this. I really can't take it anymore. So stressed out. But, I'm slowly enjoying my life now. Well, now, I'm chatting with Dani Sextoy in MSN. Anything just chat with you guys there.
Till here, I blog for now. Will blog again tonight or what. Have a nice day! And take care everyone!
Hey, viewers of mine. BACK AFTER A LONG DAY! FROM HOUGANG AND BEDOK RESERVOIR! It's so fun being alone, you know. For like nearly 4 HOURS at HOUGANG! NOT EVEN A SORRY HAS BEEN HEARD! SOME PEOPLE JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO APPRECIATE! Luckily, Fuchinu called me up. AND ASKED ME TO GO HER PLACE! Thanks Fuch, you're my life saver! And always will be.
Well, guys I got a photo dedicated for someone. The caption will be FUCK YOU, I DON'T WANT YOU BACK! Here's the photo:
Thanks for everything, my dear. You've made me turned heartless. I'm sorry. There's no way for you to turn me back. Oops! Did I hurt you this time round? Deeply hurting you? Am I being a bitch now? Oh, I'm sorry, but I like it this way. And this is nothing compared to you hurting me. Please, don't come back crying for me anymore. I'm not going to entertain at all. Get it in your thick skull okay? I'm not going back with you anymore. And that's my final answer.
Well, guys. How's your day going? I'm not meeting my Probation Officer today. It's been postponed to tomorrow. I don't know why. Perhaps, my parents complain about me. That's why they have to come down also. Sheesh! What a waste of my time entertaining her stupid crap. I'm sorry if I'm getting rude by day. I just don't wanna give people face anymore. They intend to step on my head. And I've had enough.
Okay, viewers of mine. Till here, I blog for today. Will blog again tomorrow morning or so. Take care! And have a nice day!
Hey, viewers of mine. I'm back here blogging. Now it's like 6pm. And I'm still waiting for Baby's reply.
I'm so dead tired right now. I just woke up from sleep. But, it's seems like my body still needs some more rest. Perhaps, tonight I'll be meeting Baby at Baby's place. At 12 midnight. Have to pass Baby something and spend time with him. I miss Baby alot. Baby's always the one I think of to make me go on with life. Okay, enough of sentimental stuffs already. I'm waiting for my parents to break "fast" right now. While waiting, I think I just go online for a while. As I won't be going online at night. Until in the morning. I'll have to go to MCYS tomorrow. But, kinda lazy right now to go. Perhaps, I'm not going. I'll explain to my Probation Officer why later.
Okay, people. Till here I blog for now. Will blog when I come back tomorrow okay? Take care, guys. Have a nice day!
Hey, viewers of mine. Back here blogging at night. Today's a freaking tiring day. Went out with Pixie and Ifah just now. Went for several job interviews at Bugis. Ifah bought whole lot of stuffs today. As for Pixie, she bought a pair of fake eyelashes & a skirt. The eyelashes are nice, though. I so need to get a new pair of pants. Which is 3/4s, though. I'm sick and tired of wearing too much of long pants now. Let's begin with today's blog.
A message for Fuchinu: Fuch, don't worry okay? Don't be sad. Read your blog just now. I do miss the old times. It was fun and crazy. I'm here to tell you this. Even if I'm far away, don't think I'm not here to listen to your problems. I'll be here waiting. Even if I'm busy, I'll get back to you. Cheer up okay? Miss you and the old times alot. Do take care of yourself okay? Anything just text me! A message for AK: I miss you good friend! Hope to see you soon! Anything just text me okay? If you have any problems, don't hesitate to tell me about it. I miss seeing you smile and not hurt. Just take care of yourself okay? Miss you loads!
Guys, I've made up my mind to get attached again. Okay, I know it sounds weird. Cause I said that I don't wanna get attached and stay single. But, I can't be in that kind of life. I really need love. So yeah, thought alot of times about it. And I came to a conclusion that I wanna get attached. Life's so much better now. I don't feel lonely already.
Till here, I blog for now. Take care, viewers of mine. Have a good day! And have a good night!
Hey, viewers of mine. I'm back here blogging at night. Feeling so damn tired. Been "fasting" nowadays.
Sorry, guys, I will not be updating my blog that much. As I'm gonna be busy with Pixie now. Life's getting hard. I don't know what to do. So stressed out right now. I've no mood totally. Guys, I'm not gonna get attached anymore. I just wanna lead on a SINGLE life now. It's better this way. I can enjoy life to the fullest without people stopping me. From what I wanna be and going to be. I'm sorry if I hurt anyone out there. I just wanna have a long rest. Without waking up at all. Until the time's right, I will wake up. And enjoy life to the fullest. Gosh, I don't know what I'm typing. I'm just out of my mind, perhaps.
Okay, guys. Till here I blog for today. I need some rest now. Do take care! Have a good night! And have a nice day!